Am I there yet?

Hello. My name is Jaime, and I’m a recovering destination addict.  For those of you not familiar with this term, it means you ‘ll find me in search of the “next big thing” that’s going to make the jagged puzzle pieces of my life magically and effortlessly fall into place.  I’ll be able to enjoy my life when I lose weight, find the perfect job, get married, you name it.

I know there’s nothing wrong with doing or wanting more, but my unrelenting quest for what’s next has had a nasty habit of keeping me from appreciating what I have in the now.  And I’ve come to realize I have so much to appreciate in the now, no matter my weight, job, marital status or anything else.

Not to mention, I’ve come to also realize life just plain doesn’t work that way.  I lost the weight, and spoiler alert, I actually became depressed because the life I thought would immediately unfold when I hit this milestone still alluded me.  This startling revelation made me eventually turn back to the comfort of food, and is why I’m currently in the process of losing that same 115 pounds (more on that in a future post, I promise).

So when I arrived here in my new favorite city and the ramp up period at my new job became a much rockier road than I’d been prepared for, it would have been so unbelievably easy to fall into my old, comfortable habits.  But every day, I have to make the conscious decision not to hold off on enjoying this new amazing city and this new amazing chapter of my life until things calm down at the office, not to wait once again to enjoy the life I deserve until another self-proclaimed milestone has been achieved.

I’m here to hold myself accountable to something else I saw on Pinterest (what can’t you find on Pinterest??), “Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain.” And I intend on getting soaked.